Not me OR New Me Part 2

 Last 2 months have been a really gruesome and arduous journey for me, albeit an emotional one.

I have discovered myself, lost myself and re-discovered myself and each time, there has been learnings. And hence, today I decided to pen it down.

After a long tussle of emotions, battle between heart and mind, finally, it appears mind has emerged victorious. The bigger question is 1) is it really worth the victory, considering the collateral damage ? 2) is it really a victory, and if it is, why aren't you celebrating?

When a man is born in this world, everything is very simple and basic and fundamental...and it is well known to all, then the same man has created complexities everywhere, by designing rules to tame the heart. He is also aware that heart is also his strength and at times, if he realizes full potential of heart, he can actually move the mountains.. But sadly, to follow the heart, requires not only unconventional thinking, but also unconventional actions. And hence, out of cowardice, hidden under the disguise of practical wisdom, he doesnot dare. He stays within the boundary created by his mind...As that is the "right" thing to do.

And i have been actually experimenting for some time now, by unleashing my heart and letting it go a but out of control, just to witness the new life. Indeed, it was pure pleasure, very comforting, very soothing and very natural...But all good things come to an end...and this is where, my mind which was gleefully, watching the heart unleash its magic and taking control of my body, sprung into action, the moment, it discovered a chink in the armour. My heart didnt give up so easily, it put up the best fight ever fought, in my history. 

Midway, my heart realized the futility of this battle, as it understood, that this was not a real battle between heart or mind..but rather a fight between 2 minds..One mind that stops you from undertakinng adventures And the other New mind, that allows you to relax, take vacations, make mistakes, correct them, make new mistakes, experiments and goes for little transformation of character, etc. Heart was just a scapegoat for my new mind. Hence, heart allowed itself to be defeated by New mind, because actually, the New Mind was more like the Heart itself.

There is real peace here...this "New Me" is not afraid of making mistakes, it knows that life can not be too formal and there is no Life playbook here. And more importantly, this New Me can not hurt me, but rather protect me